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This Is Not Actual Size

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Jackie's got it figured out She's gonna find a privileged man Who doesn't mind providing her With more than she deserves Jackie had a boyfriend But he didn't make a lot of bread I heard that he's a singer In a part-time basement band And Jackie says, "why are all the good ones married, Why are all the good ones gay?" Jackie, they got wise to you, Go, go, go away Jackie's got it figured out And if she gains a dozen pounds She'll have an explanation For her current lack of dates Jackie had a boyfriend But he simply wasn't cute enough I heard that he was last seen In the arms of her best friend Jackie's got it figured out She'll throw herself at any man And if he doesn't back away She'll sigh and call it love Jackie had a boyfriend But he couldn't stand another day I heard that he's a singer With an album on the charts
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Your mind will say it's monotone, that mesmerizing beat But hidden in synthetic drones, you might hear marching feet As they take you to a temple and they hand you plastic dolls Your fate is all too certain as the man in velvet calls So you try procrastination, but the man in velvet screams: See the world through the eyes of a child Let you lost innocence run wild Indecision clouds your vision You could be above suspicion All you need is love So burdened with these orders, you might seek another thrill And your confidence is rising as you move in for the kill But the target's unfamiliar and it moves its weight too well While you're struggling for your bearings and your aim's gone all to hell Smiling faces may look pretty, but they just aren't worth your time
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dig in deep or cruise the shallows lock the door and man the gallows flaunt the token symbols of your shame weight loss project, new sensations wardrobe habit alteration everybody turns out just the same tell it to Samantha and she's hanging by a thread baby, she's as good as dead drink you will and drink you'd better drain your glass you'll forget her see the cost of freedom through a haze be it Adam's rib or liquor vice will surely kill you quicker but who needs more frustrated, sober days tell it to Samantha and she's hanging by a thread baby, she's as good as dead cast aside assumptions that she'd rather not be told when her best friends say she's cold as ice and twice as slippery proud of weak mystique and frippery just last night she replied as follows "go to Hell, farewell, I'm rid of you if you think I stink, remember to spare the hints!" and I haven't seen her since
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Extrovert's your middle name I don't know what to think The night is old, I don't feel bold I haven't had a drink In spite of all these handicaps, A pact was sealed, lip service with no words And if it make you feel better Perhaps I'll write you a letter With you around I'll forget her And forgive her The way you smile makes me shiver Inconsistent alibis I don't know where to hide How'd I make the big mistake How'd she know I lied? In spite of these scenarios, I never learn, I never stop to think And if it make you feel better Perhaps I'll write you a letter With you around I'll forget her And forgive her The way you smile makes me shiver wearing out that old red dress and waiting up 'til three I admire your deep desire To mold a better "me" But read up on astrology And keep in mind that Taurus is my sign And if it make you feel better Perhaps I'll tear up this letter With you gone I won't forget her Or forgive her The way she smiles makes me shiver
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I drove you back home and we fell into bed satisfying my body but disturbing my head now you're enigma and we're never in touch heard you don't want me, could've figured as much my swift fall from grace and your poker face tell me Autumn's gonna chill me to the bone we all have an ego, says we cannot be used so was it your pleasure, must I be so confused a bit deeper substance lurks behind this facade so tell me the truth, at least give me a nod my swift fall from grace and your poker face tell me Autumn's gonna chill me to the bone leaves are falling from the trees they leave nothing but my hope grey horizons, just like my soul Autumn makes it hard to cope so was your decision the one I heard voiced did a friend with opinions ever leave you a choice your friend needs a lesson in social affairs he's cost you another, does he even care my swift fall from grace and your poker face tell me Autumn's gonna chill me to the bone the well-wishers tell me I should just move on love's unrequited and my chance is gone but I'll remember the friction and subsequent flow I'll hear your name when the Autumn winds blow my swift fall from grace and your poker face tell me Autumn's gonna chill me to the bone
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Your mind will say it's monotone, that mesmerizing beat But hidden in synthetic drones, you might hear marching feet As they take you to a temple and they hand you plastic dolls Your fate is all too certain as the man in velvet calls So you try procrastination, but the man in velvet screams: See the world through the eyes of a child Let you lost innocence run wild Indecision clouds your vision You could be above suspicion All you need is love So burdened with these orders, you might seek another thrill And your confidence is rising as you move in for the kill But the target's unfamiliar and it moves its weight too well While you're struggling for your bearings and your aim's gone all to hell Smiling faces may look pretty, but they just aren't worth your time
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People say my baby can't be beat Only 'cos her bruises are discrete They say that she's a crazy bird But I'll just have to take their word Cause I can't see Marie Unless she's looking at me People say my baby can't be real Only 'cos they don't know what to feel They say that she sticks just like glue But I cannot be sure it's true Cause I can't see Marie Unless she's looking at me I must be a fool to call It's like talking to a wall If she's even there at all
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you were asleep at the wheel that night when I slipped from my senses and out of your sight I ushered myself through the manicured grounds while my progress was measured in ounces and pounds in make-believe cities I cried out for pity and zombies make note of the root of my problem: I only want the things that I can't have you were not pushed but you stumbled and fell all aghast with the knowledge I'd seeded your well but nobody twisted your arm out of joint and the proof's in the pudding each time that you point I've been through the motions I've humored your notions and zombies make note of the root of my problem I only want the things I've left behind you were slow dancing and asked me to join but the offer hit me like a kick to the groin I tried to decline but I couldn't resist the hand on my shoulder, the blade at my wrist in times of confusion I foster illusion and zombies make note of the root of my problem I only want the things that make me ill
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why do you laugh for an hour and a half when I tell you a joke that others roll their eyes at why do you seem to be lost in a dream when I tell you uninteresting stories of my childhood little girl, you'll regret having made my acquaintance little girl, I got wise I slapped myself silly and said oh no not love again oh no not love again I don't think I can take it this time why do you call to say nothing at all amusingly musing about tomorrow's weather why do you hide criticism inside and create an image of me that is flawless and if I should ever find that I can't get you off my mind you'll be the last to know you'll be the last to know and if I cannot conceal the strong emotions that I feel I'll pack my bags and go I'll pack my bags and go
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You tantalize the masses, feed the children starved for power You divide and conquer bedrock like a suicidal flower Your name is unimportant and your words have lost their sting 'Cos in times of recognition, kissing ass will make you king You dropped a name, a famous name, take care, watch where you tread Stash your habits in the cellar or you'll surely end up dead You've proved to me that eyes alone are ill equipped to see And you're showing all the symptoms of a life that's never free If you're in love with me, then Slow down and dream of tomorrow Step bravely from the past Break down at the slightest provocation and perhaps I'll catch your eye Painless perseverance is the surest path to Hell When your Technicolor fantasies have nothing left to tell Your name is unimportant and your words have lost their rhyme 'Cos you're groping for an answer and you're running out of time I wish I'd met you years ago to straighten out your act And I wish you'd met me years ago to tutor me on tact You've proved to me that passion means a little blood is spilled And you're showing all the symptoms of a life that's unfulfilled Dissected and distilled, well Slow down and dream of tomorrow Step bravely from the past Break down at the slightest provocation and perhaps I'll catch your eye
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I drove you back home and we fell into bed satisfying my body but disturbing my head now you're enigma and we're never in touch heard you don't want me, could've figured as much my swift fall from grace and your poker face tell me Autumn's gonna chill me to the bone we all have an ego, says we cannot be used so was it your pleasure, must I be so confused a bit deeper substance lurks behind this facade so tell me the truth, at least give me a nod my swift fall from grace and your poker face tell me Autumn's gonna chill me to the bone leaves are falling from the trees they leave nothing but my hope grey horizons, just like my soul Autumn makes it hard to cope so was your decision the one I heard voiced did a friend with opinions ever leave you a choice your friend needs a lesson in social affairs he's cost you another, does he even care my swift fall from grace and your poker face tell me Autumn's gonna chill me to the bone the well-wishers tell me I should just move on love's unrequited and my chance is gone but I'll remember the friction and subsequent flow I'll hear your name when the Autumn winds blow my swift fall from grace and your poker face tell me Autumn's gonna chill me to the bone
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dig in deep or cruise the shallows lock the door and man the gallows flaunt the token symbols of your shame weight loss project, new sensations wardrobe habit alteration everybody turns out just the same tell it to Samantha and she's hanging by a thread baby, she's as good as dead drink you will and drink you'd better drain your glass you'll forget her see the cost of freedom through a haze be it Adam's rib or liquor vice will surely kill you quicker but who needs more frustrated, sober days tell it to Samantha and she's hanging by a thread baby, she's as good as dead cast aside assumptions that she'd rather not be told when her best friends say she's cold as ice and twice as slippery proud of weak mystique and frippery just last night she replied as follows "go to Hell, farewell, I'm rid of you if you think I stink, remember to spare the hints!" and I haven't seen her since

about

This short-lived former cover band turned indie pop laboratory planted numerous musical seeds that would bloom in another place at another time. This is the complete story, including the eponymous EP, demos, and live recordings. Former Angus Tweedster Dave Pearson features on lead guitar.

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released February 14, 1992

all songs by Brian Andrew Marek except
"Give Me Words" (Edwards)
"A Horse Named Bill" and "Tell It to Samantha" (Marek/Edwards)
"Fall from Grace" (Bess/Hanlon)
"You Can't Do That" (Lennon/McCartney)
"Jam" (Marek/Edwards/Pearson/Foster)

produced by Not Actual Size
engineered by Brian Andrew Marek

Brian Andrew Marek - guitars, keyboards & vocals
Scott Edwards - bass guitar & vocals
Dave Pearson - lead guitar
Brian Foster - drums and percussion
Dan Rubin - lead guitar & harmony vocals on "You Can't Do That"

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Rubberstamp Records is a DIY indie record label based in the Saint Louis, MO area and helmed by local music scene veteran Brian Andrew Marek.

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