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"DROWNER"

by Brian Andrew Marek

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1.
Captain captain, thanks for stopping thanks for taking me aboard I was sinking, I was drowning I was pleading with my Lord Lost at sea and half insane I wrestled with a hurricane captain captain, thank you once again Captain captain, name my duties tell me how to earn my keep and if I should ever fail you cast me in the briny deep Please excuse my vacant stare the fear behind my eyes coming up to gasp for air beneath the stormy skies Captain captain, I’m no martyr I’m the one who made this bed but while riding in this vessel I’ll respect the figurehead
2.
she has a dangerous addiction to a dangerous man who's been flying off the handle since the whole thing began and lately she's been losing sleep and wondering why she can't compete when all his drinking buddies come around home sweet home is burning to the ground she has a dangerous addiction to a dangerous man who's adept at burning bridges when the shit hits the fan and lately she's been looking for that germ of kindness at his core which long ago he lost and never found home sweet home is burning to the ground
3.
you can take a swing you can take a shot I won't raise a hand give me all you've got it'll take a while for the smile to come back make me see the stars make me see the light I won't clench my fist I don't have the fight it'll take a while for the smile to come back and if I seem to invite it just a little bit too much I'm so alone I'm excited for even that kind of touch I won't turn away I don't have the pride I may walk and talk but I'm dead inside it'll take a while for the smile to come back
4.
you hallelujah holocaust I knew your price but not your cost and I only trusted you ‘cos you had trusted me seems so unimportant now, so hard to clearly see why you had to repeat the mantra it figures I’d back the wrong horse a well-taught child of divorce go on, tell me that is has no bearing on our plight seems so unimportant ever since that autumn night when you had to defeat the mantra where’d you get this notion that I held you in a cage why’d you cast me in your life, then kick me from the stage three months have passed and it appears I’ve stopped believing in your tears they are just red herrings without reason, without rhyme seems so unimportant knowing I can’t turn back time back to when you’d repeat the mantra
5.
there’s nothing to say, there’s nothing to do you're turning your back, you're turning the screw I’m spending my nights just counting the days since your waning moon put me out of phase why must you always leave me this way suspended in amber again you’re screwing me up, you’re screwing me down I feel like a fool, I feel like a clown how dare you, pray tell, what gives you the right to plug up my ears and rob me of sight looking for secrets in reference books and long conversations with friends looking for hope on a face in the crowd the hope this eventually ends
6.
often I'm scared that I'm just not prepared for what's lurking outside my front door so I decide that I'll just stay inside for an hour or day or week more give me my crutch and a meaningful touch to remind me that I'm not alone but I implore you to lock every door disconnect every last telephone sometimes I feel very small sometimes I feel nothing at all I'd give the name of somebody to blame if I thought it would help me move on but copping out is what that's all about and you can't punish someone who's gone what do you do when the problem is you 'cos the problem is how you were made too full of self to be somebody else or ride on a float in their parade and sometimes I feel like I'm fading away
7.
Aberdeen 02:39
bah boppa boppa bom bow bah boppa boppa bom bow all that can be said you say return to dust and blow away all that you can say's been said and winning means you lose your head don't go our tonight or you'll be seen as you count the miles to here from Aberdeen all that was presumed was true but somewhat short of true to you all that's true had been presumed you fanned the flames and were consumed true believers don't care what you mean as you count the miles to here from Aberdeen all in all is all we are and some give their all in a jar all we are is all in all so high we rise, so far we fall make the scene your life, your life a scene as you count the miles to here from Aberdeen
8.
I was drunk on love and it tasted like sangria when reality came knocking at my door I was high on life or that general idea when reality came knocking at my door I tried to ignore it, pretend that I was gone I had no need for it to linger on and on and on posed as an adult during mid-life adolescence when reality came knocking at my door acted like a child in a real child's presence when reality came knocking at my door I had to lie low, had to lie down in my bed I dimmed the lights and pulled the sheets over my head I was so naive, thought I had my shit together when reality came knocking at my door thought I had a roof in my time of stormy weather when reality came knocking at my door
9.
I know I could never write a song to make you stay when you're set on leaving I'll just walk away and go on believing that you're gonna hug me, touch me, love me one fine day I know I could never undo all the things I did, all the ways I hurt you all the times I hid, seeming to desert you times I could've hugged you, touched you, loved you but instead I always took you for granted in the cruelest ways I'd give a million dollars to relive those days I know I could never write a song to make you stay, you're already long gone tired of the way I gave you the long con tired of the lying, prying, crying every day
10.
Surrender 03:03
So this is how it ends Well, at least I’ve had my fun Just for the record, please Who has lost and who has won? I know it’s unimportant trivia to you I know I must surrender But who must I surrender to? So this is where we stand Well, my stomach’s tied in knots Because I’ve got to know Who is going to call the shots I swear I didn’t know it was a crime I speak no language and I have no sense of time So this is why we live Well, I want my money back Who paints in shades of blue While I fall into the black?
11.
Hey Mister Sandman, lend me a hand, man Send a dream right over, you could be my four leaf clover Hey Mister Sandman, where do I stand, man In your world of slumber I know I’m not just a number When times start getting tough Too much is not enough So won’t you strut your stuff today When I can’t stand my head I place it in a bed And let myself be led astray Hey Mister Sandman, things aren’t as planned, man I’ve been getting thinner, skipping lunch and skipping dinner Hey Mister Sandman, no cash in hand, man I could pay you Monday for a pleasant dream on Sunday Hey Mister Sandman, life is just grand, man I just stare in wonder ever since you put me under Hey Mister Sandman, please understand, man Long as I need sleeping, you’re the company I’m keeping
12.
lovers in a leaking boat on a stormy sea you can cling to me while we're sinking fast pounded by the tidal waves, pitching fore & aft seems our little craft wasn't meant to last we've got no way of turning back we're taking on the inky black we've gone off course, we've lost our grip abandon hope, abandon ship lovers in a leaking boat drifting far from shore once our lives were war, now we'll rest in peace we've got no way of turning back we're taking on the inky black we've gone off course, we've lost our grip abandon hope, abandon ship lovers in a leaking boat vanishing from view I can cling to you while we're sinking fast mother nature rushes in, we can only yield for our fate was sealed somewhere in the past
13.
Captain captain, thanks for stopping thanks for taking me aboard I was sinking, I was drowning I was pleading with my Lord Lost at sea and half insane I wrestled with a hurricane captain captain, thank you once again Captain captain, name my duties tell me how to earn my keep and if I should ever fail you cast me in the briny deep Please excuse my vacant stare the fear behind my eyes coming up to gasp for air beneath the stormy skies Captain captain, I’m no martyr I’m the one who made this bed but while riding in this vessel I’ll respect the figurehead
14.
I’ve made my world so very small that now there’s no one here at all just tables turned and lessons learned and bridges burned I’ve got no time for anyone I’ve got no time for any fun while hurrying and scurrying and worrying I’ve got a lot I can give and you can take it from me I’ve got a message for you, yeah and radio silence just can’t silence me
15.
too many times you’ve broken, too many times by me a lot of major damage my ears will never see your frets may buzz a little, you may have many dings but I’d do anything to get back my steel strings bring back my steel strings I loved you from the get-go, you were an Epiphone I had an ‘80s Sigma but I felt all alone no money was exchanged then, you simply joined my things I held you in my arms and I played your steel strings bring back my steel strings but I took you for granted and put you on your stand I picked up other axes while playing with my band but they can’t give me what your familiar fretboard brings now I cry a cappella without my silver strings bring back my steel strings
16.
we ought to wait but we cannot we cross the tracks you cry, “my foot's caught” I'll stay with you, Mary though you beg me to go I'll stay with you, Mary though the ground rumbles down below, below the flagman tries so hard but fails to pull your leg out from the steel rails I shield you from the iron horse one last embrace as we're hit full force
17.
Keys 02:16
I’ve got the key to my office I’ve got the key to my car I’ve got the key to my suitcase but I don’t have the key to my home You took the key to the front door you took the key to the back you took the key to the basement ‘cos I don’t have the key to your heart The load’s lighter in my left pocket but not in my heart the load’s lighter in my left pocket since we’ve been apart Is there a key to this madness? is there a key to our mess? is there a key to escape this? I just can’t find the key anymore
18.
at night I think about the times I wasn't punished for my crimes when I knew I was to blame the magic moments when I thrived the close calls that I have survived dodging bullets with my name it's not a bad life, really it's really not that bad at night I think of all I own and everybody that I've known in this crazy life so far if I could have just one of each you'd be the one thing in my reach other than this old guitar shooby dooby doo wop bop shooby dooby doo wop bop at night I sit and contemplate the gentle nature of my fate and I know that I am blessed at night I thank the stars above that I was not afraid to love but saved you the very best
19.
Makes Me 01:54
makes me better and makes me worse makes me write another verse makes me surer and makes me doubt makes it hard to go without, go without I think I’ll quit after this hit but then again, perhaps not now I’ll have to make a total break but then again, I don’t know how makes me crazy and makes me sane makes me comfy with my brain makes me bluer and makes me red makes me purple in the head I think I’ll quit after this hit but then again, perhaps not now I’ll have to make a total break but then again, I don’t know how
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about

2016's thematically somber but musically catchy song cycle "DROWNER", newly reissued with its 2015 precursor EP A Visit into Foreign Kitchens included as bonus tracks (13-20).

"Marek's music is perennially infused with the knack for harmony and hooks that come from having ingested 60 years' worth of pop music, from AM pop mainstays like the Zombies and the Association to outre-rock icons like XTC and Todd Rundgren." - Christian Schaeffer, The Riverfront Times, 4/17/19

credits

released March 15, 2016

I'M A DOWN
I'M A DOWNER
I'M A DROWNER

KATE MAREK - HARMONY VOCALS
ON "HEY MR. SANDMAN"
MICHAEL THOMPSON - SOME ENGINEERING
ALL OTHER HATS WORN BY BaM

BASIC TRACKS FOR "CAPTAIN CAPTAIN"
RECORDED AT STATELY SKJLE MANOR
EVERYTHING ELSE RECORDED
IN THE BARGAIN BASEMENT

THANK YOU
KATE
MYK
SKJLE
ROBERT HEDGES
TIM MCAVIN
JIM MCKINNEY
ROCKET PARK

BONUS: A VISIT INTO FOREIGN KITCHENS (EP)
TRACKS 13-20 WRITTEN, ARRANGED AND PRODUCED
BY BRIAN ANDREW MAREK
MOSTLY AT STATELY SKJLE MANOR
JULY 25TH - AUGUST 23RD 2015

LEAD GUITAR ON "KEYS" BY KJLE RISCH
ALL OTHER INSTRUMENTAL AND VOCAL
PEFORMANCES BY BRIAN ANDREW MAREK

PHOTOGRAPHY BY KJLE

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